Sunday, March 20, 2005

Who can give me answers?

Disappointment.

I've been all pins and needles in anticipation all day.

In the end, I messed it all up. My grand plans backfired and blew up in my face.

It's sort of like a drug, actually, the little things that used to send you soaring slowly affect you less and less. Every day, you start needing a stronger and stronger fix. And when you don't get it you're just left wanting. Eventually, you realize that all you are is a gaping maw of desire.

Meanwhile, the Creator and Sustainer of this world is everywhere, in everything. And He's big enough to fill up all your emptiness. He's your only true desire.

Realizing it, and realizing it; somehow they're two different things.